Laughing too hard
Singing :)
Kissing ♥
and friends.

He's perfect.
I've waited longer than anyone for this and I can't believe it's actually happening!


Could my life possibly get any more perfect?!


Well.. I could be in Cancun. haha

There is a candle pass at 9 tonight!!!

Which means one of my sisters in getting lavaliered or is ENGAGED!!!


This is the most exciting thing all YEAR! kdjfnlerfaefiehf :) :) :)

and i have a feeling i have a lot of good days ahead :)


I cried when they dropped me off here and I'm going to cry when they come to pick me up.

College is when you meet the people you can't believe you lived without <3 We came as strangers, became friends and will leave as family.

“Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breath deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it and life always makes more.”



It's weird how starting a new life makes you think you're invincible. Like nothing can hurt you. And then one day you wake up and realize you were wrong. It's even weirder when you're the happiest you've ever been in your whole life, even when a huge 4 years of your life is over. When you don't know whether you're crying sad or happy tears, or both... you just know that you can't stop crying.

I feel like my fairytale is coming true. Everything I've ever wanted is right here in front of me, and everything I used to want is right behind me and I don't want to look back. My life has played out just how it should. And here I stand less than a year later, a completely changed person. I'm the person I've always wanted to be, the person a lot of people wanted me to be. A daughter who can make her parents proud. An aunt who can be a positive role model instead of a negative one.

Life is so odd. You lose one of the most important things in your life. You gain 55 new very important things. But no matter how happy you are, there's always the feeling of "wow i wish you could be sharing this with me"

But part of growing up is doing whats best for you and all involved. And sometimes letting go is stronger than holding on.


Even after writing this I can't come to my own conclusion. I feel like dancing in the rain or laughing until I cry. Or running with my nephews. I don't know.


Bad ending but I have nothing else to really say.

I'm just going to let myself be childish for a quick sec....


I wish certain people would keep their word and not be friends with people who have hurt me.

1. Partied Thursday @ Phi Sigma Phi. Blacked out :)
2. Went to an AKL Party Friday. Didn't drink because I still had a hangover from Thursday. But had fun anyway.
3. Yesterday I saw Legally Blonde the musical @ Michigan State and got Laura Bell Bundy's autograph (the lead) !!!!! then partied with old friends and ate pizza.
4. Today Manzo and Sarah are staying the night with me at EMU and we're...... partying! haha.
5. No class tomorrowwwwww

First, he was just an acquaintance. I didn't know anything about him except that he was pretty funny.
Then, he was a good friend, and he got a lot more funny and cared about what was best for me and I told him everything.
Now, every time I see him, I feel funny.....


he has a girlfriend. They're celebrating their 1 year today. Shouldn't I be happy for them? Him and I are "just friends"..... right?

So academic probation sucks. I have to do so many freaking study hours!! And fill out things in my binder all the time, go have my professors sign stuff, it just adds stuff to my plate. I know I brought this on myself, but Making someone MORE busy won't help them get better grades. I just feel trapped and stressed now. I can't even go to formal! So I'm hoping I get asked to AKL's???

But at least I can still party on weekends.

And speaking of weekends!! This past one I went to Necto with my sisters on Thursday, which was amazing as is every moment spent with them! Then Friday I partied in Ann Arbor with Dee, Christian, Brandon, Jen, and Marcus. and it was SO much fun. Since I've been at EMU I forgot how fun Ann Arbor can be if you're with the right people!

This coming weekend, I'm going to State to see Legally Blonde the Musical. And I just received great news! The girl who was supposed to play Elle broke her toe, so now LAURA BELL BUNDY is most likely coming back and being in the performance!!!!! (She's the original Elle if you don't know)

I AM SOOO PUMPED. If it's her I'll seriously cry. Well, I'll probably cry anyway, but if it's her it'll just be a lot harder to stop!! :) :) :)



I love Ypsi and the people here and everything about living here and I can't believe I ever survived back home.

I want to make a Facebook group "You know you went to Fraser when..." and I need more to add to the list.

1. You know what A, B, and C Houses are.
2. You know who the troll is.
3. You remember bagels during seminar
4. You know what seminar is.
5. You cried when they got rid of A/B commons
6. The dress code says no flip flops but everyone wears them anyway
7. You loved the half days every other wednesday
8. You counted down the minutes till 2:18
9. The football team won like 5 games the whole time you went there.
10. People went to the football games anyway to see the band.
11. You had 4 classes per day.
12. You know what blue/gold days are.
13. You remember the cookie fight
14. You remember the gas leak.
15. 80% of the teachers could be distracted into telling useless stories the whole block.
16. You never want to hear the phrase "silent reading" again.
17. Heroine High
18. You went to El Charro or Bdubs on half days
19. "No planner, no go."
20. You remember when "2 tardies equalled an absence"
21. You were grossed out every lunch by the gum stuck between the doors in C Commons
22. 90% of dances weren't even held at our school, they were at Richards.'
23. We had 2 senior skip days.
24. You've gotten drunk at a park at least once.
25. Random people used to just walk into Mr. P's seminar and he wouldn't notice/didn't care.
26. You know that Mrs. Beutel has dead animals all over her classroom.
27. People had sex under staircases.
28. Block scheduling only seems to make sense to you.
29. You knew when a hall monitor/ administrator is behind you because you hear those walkie talkies
30. You felt ripped off when you had an a/b locker and your friend got a c-house locker.
31. The biggest fight you saw in the lunchroom is over a cookie.
32. The races included: white, black, mexican, asian, arabic, and fake tan.
33. You think the city's name should officially be changed to Fray-town.
34. There were boycotts in the lunchroom because french fry prices went up.
35. Teachers don't care if your late because you went to Mcdonalds....as long as you got them something.
36. You signed up for counseling appointments to get out of class.

My dad suggested transferring to Wayne and driving there everyday. I feel like I'm suffocating. I could never commute. People who commute miss out on the college experience, as corny as that sounds.

I'm 19 years old, I don't want to live at home with my parents. I need to be on my own where I can do what I want, when I want, without having to ask permission.

Plus as much as I love coming home and seeing my family and friends, I love college more. It's just a better atmosphere. I feel more comfortable there. I already have a family there. And I could never leave Delta Zeta. My mom was like "There's a Delta Zeta at Wayne!" But it won't be the same. Wayne is stupid and doesn't let sororities have houses. What if I don't fit in with the DZs there? I love my sisters. They're like 55 of my long lost best friends.


That and I don't want to drive to Detroit.


I'm so excited to go to michigan state in like 12 days to see Legally Blonde the Musical!!!


p.s. Mad Gab is the best game ever invented.

Can I just say that it feels GREAT to not have any problems with who I am right now?

College has changed me into a much better person, I have way too much fun every day, I'm closer with my family, I have the friends I want/need, I'm in a wonderful sorority and have amazing, gorgeous sisters, I have gotten rid of people in my life who don't respect me, I have just enough attention from the guys that I like, I have the best roommate ever, and I still have faith in God! What more could a girl ask for???

The only thing I did wrong this year was not getting great grades. That's my only New Years Resolution! And I'm looking forward to an amazing year!



I love my life.... I'm the luckiest girl alive :)



I hope everyone has a great new year! PARTY HARD OR GO HOME!

I am so sick of being nice to people for no reason. I hate when you're nice to someone and they aren't nice back. Especially if they are mad for no reason.

All I keep doing is repeating the Delta Zeta Creed over and over in my head to keep from snapping, and reminding myself that I'm being the bigger person.


It feels good to be nice and respect people all the time, but its hard to respect someone when you know they're wrong, and when you know they're not respecting you. I'm so glad I have my sisters to talk about this with or I'd be punching a pillow. haha


Anyway I'm done with exams finally!! And I get to relax/party. Tonight I'm going to dinner with my big brotherrrr kyle :) and we're talking about some stuff. Then tomorrow is Katie and Jen's after finals bash! I'm soooo pumped. Let's get ready to stummmmble :)



Friday is my 19th birthday!!!!!

I wish I could be at EMU with my sisters and everyone :( but at least some people from here are coming clubbing with me and my old friends! :)

I also KNOW that I am going to want to come back to EMU as soon as christmas is over. But I miss my fammm.

I was talking to my mommy about how I was having the worst day ever like 2 days ago and without even asking for it 10 of my friends were texting, calling, or telling me to meet them places so we could talk. And she really made me think when she said "I know probably 3 people from Fraser who would have been there for you."

I always thought I had good friends who cared about me. But I guess my mom is right. Now that I think about it, some of my old friends only cared about themselves, and they hardly were even there when I ASKED them to be.

So I seriously prayed and thanked God for what I have right now, my new friends who never cease to amaze me with how wonderful and caring they are, and those true few from back home who I know I can always count on. It's amazing what He's done for me in the past 6 months. I always wanted to stay with the same group of friends forever. But thank God for unanswered prayers.


Anyway, I got initiated into Delta Zeta last Sunday. It was beautiful, and I cried. My parents also wrote me a letter for the special day, and it was so sweet. They were like "we support you 100% and are so proud of you"

yay!!! I love my life.

I'm Thankful for:

1. What God gives me every single day despite my major screw ups and forgetfulness of Him. Everyone should wake up every morning and thank God for the air that they breathe, and the talents they have, their shelter, the clothes on their backs, the list goes on and on. We wouldn't living if it weren't for Him.
2. My family... every single person, young or old or somewhere in between. Because for 18 years they've been by my side no matter how many times I've screwed up, and besides God there is no better example of unconditional love other than your family.
3. My old friends. (Well, the ones who didn't ditch me when I went to college) Because I have too many memories to count with you guys, and there's no one quite like you at EMU. And you have shown me that although distance keeps us apart, friends are forever close to your heart. And I believe that "TRUE friendship is not being inseparable. it's being separated and nothing changes."
4. My new friends. There are no words to explain how tight of bonds we have formed in so little time. They make me actually sad to come home for breaks like this.
5. DELTA ZETA is by far the best thing that has ever happened to me.
6. Opportunity. to be where I am today, to have an education, to be somewhat financially stable, to be healthy, to be HAPPY!

Yay! I get to see my family and my nephewssss. :)

A few things have happened.
1. I got over a guy real fast when I realized he was wrong for me.
2. I met 2 more amazing ones :)
3. I got my big sister, the one I wanted!! Alli Sheppard, the most amazing human being ever created.
4. Serenading with Delta Zeta was a blast.
5. I passed my Delta Zeta new member test with 100%
6. I'm insanely happy with life.
7. I get to see Steph, Leah, Christina, and Shawn!!


One thing I'm nervous about is I'm afraid I'm going to go back to Fraser for 4 days and be homesick for EMU.

18 days till I find out who my big sister is!!!!!

My classes got cancelled for tomorrow so all I have is choir! :)

I had a Philanthropy Committee meeting tonight and it was fun. A few night ago I went to Ann Arbor with Katie, Kiki, and Lawrence and we just took random pictures and talked to random people and it was sooo funny.

Last night I was dumb and stayed at the Alpha Kappa Lambda House until 4 in the morning watching movies. :)

The guy I like is confusing, to the point where it is humorous. But I laugh at everything.


I love my friends and miss my family!



We had to write personal values statements for Delta Zeta and this is mine:

"I value my family because they have always been there for me, my friends because they are there when my family can’t be, respect for all people, no matter their differences, integrity, wisdom, and most of all kindness because I believe it can change the world."


It's so weird because 4 or 5 months ago I would never have thought that my statement would look like this. It would been like "I value alcohol and I'm really mean to my parents even thought they spend all their money on me."

hahaha



I'm coming home this weekend for Racquel, Mindy, and the twins' birthday party. I probably will see Steph cuz I always do when I come home. And definitely Leah and Christina because I didn't see them last time. And maybe Shawn. yayyyy

You know those parties you see on tv where its the best party on campus and its crazy and you have to be in a sorority or fraternity to get in?

i was just freakin at one!!!! you will never understand how awesome it feels to be a part of greek life unless you experience it.












p.s. Kyle is my big brother!! Which makes me and Mike twins!!!

and locked my keys and my phone in my car... again. and now my dad has to come up here and get me.... this is sooo dumb. i feel like the biggest idiot ever, and i know this is such a small thing and it's really not a big deal but I feel like I just let my parents down, and myself down because college is supposed to make you grow up, but I didn't start locking my keys in my car till I got here.


Idk... its just one more thing my dad should not have to do for me.


I don't know why I'm so emotional today. My night was amazing yesterday and today falls down a big huge shithole.


I wish I could call some of my sisters but my phone is locked in my car. :(

I went to a CRAZZZYYYY ASS party last night. it was freaking insane. i loved it.

the highlight of my week was that party, and the highlight of the party was dancing to Spice Girls while wasted :)


and things are going reallllyyyy good with the guy :)


I'm goin home for the night. yay! peace up, fray-town down. damn i miss sayin' that haha